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She doesn't know where life will carry her but she stays a float.

She doesn't know who will truly be there when odds are against her but she stays a float.

She doesn't know if your words are true or that your heart is true but she still gives it. 

She only wants the truth, honesty, loyalty but she continues to struggle with the lies you unfold.

She can not be held back by your lies unloyalty.

She can only count on her own loyalty to herself. 

There are a lot of hurtful things in life.... So she bandages tape piece back the pieces of her fondued heart. Hoping one day it's no given in vein. It's a fight not worth fighting it's a pain not worth having... Her next chapter.

Will be her best chapter ever... One of real love and with someone worthy of her heart. No looking back 

Endurance

The ability to over come the worst obstacles.... 

One of the hardest things to get over is betrayal.  

The feeling of being let down or lied to. Often the person that can hurt you the most are the people we keep closest hold dear to us..... 

Endure the trials that a selfish person will put you through..... The ideal of that being LOVE is so ignorant!

Its fair from what it means to be loved or show love.... 

Love doesn't break you down or make you feel less than great. LOVE IS EVERYTHING THAT YOUR NOT SEEING...

It's the feeling or not being alone even when you are alone. That feeling of someone having your back all the time right or wrong.... 

So I endure antil someone WORTHY of my heart steps there feet in my path..... I'm positive on what it feels like and looks like even what it sounds like. So I will endure antil I meet my KING! Pushing back from the fake and hurtful so called love you so called have....

I will endure I will have my forever but first I must clear my path for the right one to enter..

Without words

Memories hold you memories carry 

Lasting joy,pain,love,hate,life,&death 

Define you........ But they don't make you. 

The lact there of its presence.

The longing for exceptance from whoever wherever however you find it.

Learn to KEEP IT!!!!!! 

Dying breed they don't LOVE anymore 

Love me

Hold me without being told to 

Squeeze me so tight , like I hold you

Make me ! 

Feel lost in your presence 

Takes my mind off the little 

Insignificant things 

Take me to my happiness 

Make my heart dance like birds of a feather .

I want a love that could withstand any weather 

Ups and downs 

Wrong or right 

Let's fight !!! 

For our LOVE 

PUT ME FIRST AND LEAVE THE REST UP TO ME 

Numb

Got a call today thought I was you. Face lite up like a full moon.... Heart racing the anticipation of the strength in your voice. Longing to hear those 3 words.... 

Hello!!!!! But the other voice wasn't so deep did not make me weak... My whole expression changed. When you told me your name...... Deep breaths taken heart still racing. I wish what she said wasn't true.... I wish it was a dream and lie or two. Quickly reality set in......   

My love my heart my joy&pain was never mind to start with..... There was a game being played with my heart and mind.... And he was the puppet master he pulls the strings.... 

Now I can't feel my heart because it no longer exists 😢